My arms are empty, and I will say it hurts. I loved my sweet baby kitty Shugums, and my cuddly cat Serafina. Yes, I did have a favorite. Shugums was my baby… my baby kitty. She was mine. She loved me, and I loved her. Serafina was the family cat, and one that eventually I couldn’t hold often. From the first day of January to June 23rd, Shugums became even more my baby. She would cuddle with me more, and even sleep on my bed some nights. Before, she had mostly been an independent cat, that cuddled with me on her terms. She liked her alone time, and I would give it to her.
When I euthanized Shugums and then Serafina… I held them. They were in my arms as they passed. The feeling… And then carrying them as they have no life…

My arms ache… I miss them so very much. Momma said that she would be there until the very end… I made good on my word no matter how much it hurt.

I just had to Euthanize this cuddly cat on the 15th.
I didn’t want to, but I had to. I wish with everything I have that I didn’t just have to euthanize both of my sweet kitties. I am not in control, and God saw that it was time… I trust Him. He knows what is best for me now, and in the future. There are many memories that I have, and many more I wanted to make, but that is just not how it was supposed to be.

I will miss both Shugums and Serafina very much.
I pray that in His time, God might bring another special kitty into my life.