2020 has been a interesting year so far. Covid-19 has turned the world upside down.
To me, this whole thing has made it felt like it was just after my mom had passed. We never really went anywhere for a while, and no one was around to visit.

Many things have happened in the past five months… some good, some bad, and some great!
Yes Covid-19 has caused much fear, but it has also sent revival through the world! People have come “together” to help one another, and that is wonderful and warms my heart!

I pray that the Lord continues to work in peoples hearts and lives, and that more will come to know Him through this time!

It has been a while since I last wrote.
Many things have happened since. I just want to stop and Thank the Lord for all He did in my life and others lives through the year of 2019!
I Pray that the year of 2020 God will continue to work on my heart and that I will grow closer to Him each day!

I hope I will be able to write on here more often this year, and share my struggles and victories!

So, how am I doing…

I am doing alright. July hasn’t been a waste even though I haven’t lost as much weight as I would like. This month has more been about discovery. How can I lose the weight, what works best, what changes do I need to make, and how can I stay focused? All question I have tried to answer this month, and I’d like to say I think I have.

This month I changed my breakfast which is a big deal for me… I love my cereal. However, I needed to drop my bowl of cereal to see if that would help. I replaced it with a slice of cinnamon bread & one hard-boiled egg. I have to say that that was tough. Bread is just not as tasty to me. I do that for my breakfast and then I have just the home-made smoothie for lunch. Dinner is still whatever the meal happens to be, but with the other meals good, I can worry less about it.

Exercising. I have uped it. I walk in the morning, and I have been able to walk a longer distance I started with 0.39mi, now I do 0.59mi. I know it isn’t alot, but that is just in the morning. After devotions I do my yogaish stuff:

Stretch, Crunches, Crunches with exercise ball, leg lifts, outer thigh lifts, inner thigh lifts, Plank, knee push-ups, and then I lift weights.

In the afternoon I walk again and I do around 1/2 -3/4 of a mile.

In the evening my sister and I do the wii fit, and wii active- totaling 40min.

Next my sister and I do what we call our “Dirt drink” Recipe. (We take no credit. Found on Pinterest.)

We do in each cup:

Just less then 12oz of water.

2Tbsp of Apple-cider vinegar.

1 1/2 lemons juice (We buy three lemons to split)

1tsp Cinnamon

1Tbsp of Raw honey.

There you go. We do it about four night a week. Sun, Mon, Wed, Sat. If we miss a day, we just move it to a different day, and still try to do four times.

With all of this plus a Challenge.

I am not going to have any sweets for the next two months, mark that October 1st will be my last day. Yeah, I know this will be hard for me, but I have grown, and I want to prove to myself and my sister that with Deu’s help I am strong. Psalm 142:3.

Wish me luck!

This was getting bunches of Spam, so I deleted it and redoing it.

As I close out this year, i have to say somethings.

When this year began I was afraid of what it might bring. It has brought tears, laughs, sadness, and joy!

I wouldn’t take the trials of the year out, because I wouldn’t be who I am today.

I am Thankful for what God has taught me, and brought me through.

God is good.

As I start this new year, I pray that God will continue to help me grow in Him.

As I try to lose mass physically I know I will have a emotional battle going on in my head. I always do, so how do I not get overwhelmed?

Deu- I call God that for it makes it more personal.

This time around I am fully relying on Deu’s help. Constant prayer, and making sure I fulfill all I want. I believe with hard work I can lose the mass I wish.

Now my goal is 130lbs. I am probably 210lbs by now. Which means I need to lose 80lbs. Well, I will think realistic and say that I want to look a certain way, and my muscle could make me what I want and be 140lbs.

So if I look the way I want at 150lbs – 130lbs I will stop. Muscle weighs too, gotta remember that. If I gain muscle as fast as I lose fat, I may not see results for a little while on the scale. Inches in the tummy is what I care about most.

With all that, I will add that I think I have to be eating Spiritual food in order to lose mass. I must be in Deu’s word daily and and pray daily. Stay in His will.

“I can do all things through CHRIST which strenghenth me.” Philippians 4:13

Joshua 1:9, “Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.”

This verse has shown up in my life in the most unusual places… books. A book series that I love, and a new book I am reading right now. And the two books focus differently on the verse.

The book series focuses on “Have I not commanded thee?” As a sign that He has called the missionaries to their mission field. And then the rest of the verse goes with it.

The book I am reading now, focuses on “Be strong and of good courage;” and then the rest of the verse, leaving out “Have not I commanded thee?”

I love the way God brings learning verses to me by books and I am able to see the verse from different ways.

“The Sword” “The Gift” “The Kingdom”

Well, my dream happened a few nights ago, but I am still thinking about it.

It really hurt to be pulled from Moms arms. I woke up almost in tears. I didn’t want this to be reality. Even though my dream world wasn’t nice… it had Mom.

It still hurts thinking and remembering the dream.

I miss you Mom, but I know one day I will see you again.

Last night I was dreaming, and at first it was not a nice one.

But then it changed, and very quickly.

I was at church, and the moment I saw Papa, my hurts were gone. I hugged him, and then I saw Mom! (In the dream she had been fighting cancer and had to be away from us for years.) I ran and hugged her tight… but then my alarm went off and I had to wake up. Sadness…

Dreams are mean sometimes.

I miss Papa and Mom so much. It hurts when they are with you in a dream and you have to let them go, wake up and have them gone.

Questions from my devotional book “Who Holds the Key to your Heart” today.