Only God can make it a really small world.

It turns out that one of the nurses that help take care of my nephew is a friend of mine. I met her years ago at Church Camp. That was back in 2011.

We have kept in contact since then and even met up once. But she has been busy (good for her) and we haven’t been able to meet in a few years. Now – without my knowledge- she met my family. My brother was mentioning the names of the nurses, and her name showed up. Asked what she looked like, and I was pretty sure it was her. I messaged her later and sure enough she has been helping my nephew! WOW!!!

Only God can put together these things. It was a help to know that God is in control…

Thank you Lord for every little part of your design.

Well, the past two days have not been great for me.

Saturday I wanted so bad to try and visit my nephew in the hospital, that I ignored the winter storm warning, and started on the way. Just a mile in I had a curb check. A pretty bad one. Thank goodness only the tires were damaged. Both right tires need to be replaced.

Only by God’s help was I able to get the car home without help. It was a very slow mile, but I got it home. My sister was in the car with me, and she got a little scrap from the jolt, but other then that both of us are safe.

It shook me up a bit. I feel so bad for ruining the tires. But, Dad is right. It could have gone a lot worse.

So tomorrow night, dad and I will take the car to be fixed. That will be a slow drive. My front wheels just spin, and it is not level.

Also I just kept bumping into things, and dropping things. And I didn’t sleep well that night.

Sunday the shock was kicking in. I couldn’t eat, I was dizzy (and couldn’t walk a straight line to save me) and I was shaking. I got a headache (Which is the worst for me) and went into a darker place then I would have liked. But as usual my sister was the best. She did her best to help me.

And again, I was clumsy.

However, I was able to get a good sleep which was nice.

Now Today I am doing well, and some ragularness is nice.

Recently I have been inspired to write a play, or could be movie script.

I am amazed at how well it is going. i already have 35 pages on Microsoft Word (normal spacing.)

Writing Scripts is not new to me, since I have wrote a few children ones for me and my sister. One that we take great pride in. I will not tell you the title… you may want to take it. We dream that one day it would be able to be put on by a church. However, since neither one of us write songs… we have to wait until someone comes along who can finish the Play with Music. Til then, we just perfect and proofread.

Unlike the play my sister and I wrote, this one is not on Christ. This one is about… shouldn’t tell you that either. Sorry… Kidding. It is about not looking on the outside… I guess it does have Something to do with Christ, for that is how we are to be.

It for now.

Today, I would like everyone that reads this to take a moment, and Pray for those who have lost loved ones. I know of a woman who just lost her husband a week ago, and I can’t imagine what that is like. So I just ask that in the busyness, you will just take a moment, pray for them, and count your blessings. And Merry Christmas Eve!

Today I turn 21!

Wow. I remember when I was younger looking at the 21 year olds with awe.

Now I am 21. Time flies.

I am so thankful for all the things in my life. God has truly been good. Sure I am 21 with no Mom, and I lost my papa last year, and many other grandparents, but I will see them again, and what a day that will be.

Today I will be celebrating my birthday a bit different. This time it will just be my sister and I going out to do things.

We will be getting our hair done, walking around a mall, and getting ice cream. When we get back we will do games or something.

Psalm 28:7

God answered a long time prayer today. I have felt stuck in what I should be doing. Yet knowing God is in control.

I have known that God has been leading me in another direction. I have never had the urge to have a job job. My passion is for seniors. That may sound crazy, but it is true.

God gave me peace a few months back about relying on Him. All my devotionals have been linked the past month on that matter. And two weeks ago I knew that God has plans for me, and even though it is harder to do nothing, I need to be patient and trust in God’s timing.

Well guess what… He answered my job cry.

I was out for a walk, and it was meant to be a visit to a neighbor down at the circle. (I met this lady two weeks ago.) Any way, she wasn’t home so I headed home. I got back to the driveway and decided I would visit another neighbor I hadn’t seen in a while. She has been looking and praying about someone being able to help clean her home. But she doesn’t want strangers, she wants someone she can trust. I happen to be looking for seniors to help!

So I will be cleaning her house.

Just that day I read in my devotions that “God still moves stones.” “Don’t quit… The job contact may be on the desk” That was just an hour before I got a job. God is good.

I can’t tell you how much this has meant to me, and how much God has been doing the past few months.

For the first time in a long time, I am sleeping good.

 God is Good!!

Today it has been two years since I started to fight Depression.

I thank God for all He has taught me, and brought me through.

I may not be the same person I was two years ago, but I think that is a good thing. My relationship with God is, well a relationship not just a “yeah He’s there”.

Do I still have “moth” attacks… Yes. But I can get through them well. (I call them moths, not butterflies, since it’s a bad feeling.)

I do not know that is in store for the next year, but I know with God’s help I can do anything.

Philippians 4:13,”I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.”

Another song that I have enjoyed. With God, I have no need to fear. And fear is strong in my life. I am still learning.

Yeah… Didn’t go well.

This month has brought things we had to work around. Every time we figured out what I should do something came up that would disrupt that.

I am still at 200lbs though, so good there. I didn’t gain, but I didn’t lose.

I will do better in October. I have another idea. I am writing motivation on my hand to keep me from eating things I shouldn’t. Write where I grab things.

Now that it is cooler, I can go on walks multiple times a day. Do yoga, and do Cardio in the Garage.

I will update you the last week of October.

:/ Hasn’t been good at all. I lost my motivation, and have probably gained 4 pounds back. But, I am not giving up. I am trying a new motivation. A paper chain. I have been using a jar with marbles to represent how much I have lost and what I have to go. (Two jars- one=how much I have, two=how much I’ve lost.) Now I will use a paper chain which will drive me crazy, which is the point. I still have 60 pounds or so to lose, so it will be long. It will remind me daily of why I want to lose the weight.

My sister/trainer is adding more cardio to my workouts, and I actually like that.

With it starting to cool down I will start walking more. I like walking outside… looking at God’s creation! So Beautiful!

I hope everything works! I won’t update this progress until September.

Okay so this week wasn’t the greatest, but that doesn’t mean giving up. I still lost 6ozs this week. Puts me at 200.8lbs.

This week my sister and I will be able to relax which will be good for losing mass.

I will keep you updated of course.