Over time I am getting better… Each day I must determine what I am going to be like. Will I let fear win or will I trust God throughout the day. That choice makes a difference.

Nights are rough for me, since they get my mind thinking. My head has also gotten sensitive at night again, so I am more susceptible to headaches. Whenever I feel one coming on I rub an ice cube on my face, or rinse with cold water. It helps my mind not focus on my head, and turns it to how cold my face is.

I am trying to gather and keep all the courage and strength I can for the 24th. I see it as a brick wall I must get through, and even if I am bruised at least I will be through. God is my strength and he will help me.

I feel as if I have lost the grip on my life… I want to do something, but I don’t want to. Like chores. The little things can sometimes be hard to just do.

I am trying to be in God’s word more. I am reading the book again called “Be Still, My Child.” I first read it when God was teaching me about trust and faith the first time. Also I found a commentary on Psalms by Charles Spurgeon I am going to try and read that too. I am also going through James once a week with my sister, and of course the Bible study book. I just pray that the Lord will help me get back on my feet.