Over time I am getting better… Each day I must determine what I am going to be like. Will I let fear win or will I trust God throughout the day. That choice makes a difference.

Nights are rough for me, since they get my mind thinking. My head has also gotten sensitive at night again, so I am more susceptible to headaches. Whenever I feel one coming on I rub an ice cube on my face, or rinse with cold water. It helps my mind not focus on my head, and turns it to how cold my face is.

I am trying to gather and keep all the courage and strength I can for the 24th. I see it as a brick wall I must get through, and even if I am bruised at least I will be through. God is my strength and he will help me.

I feel as if I have lost the grip on my life… I want to do something, but I don’t want to. Like chores. The little things can sometimes be hard to just do.

I am trying to be in God’s word more. I am reading the book again called “Be Still, My Child.” I first read it when God was teaching me about trust and faith the first time. Also I found a commentary on Psalms by Charles Spurgeon I am going to try and read that too. I am also going through James once a week with my sister, and of course the Bible study book. I just pray that the Lord will help me get back on my feet.

Today is Mothers Day… Which for the past seven years has been a difficult day. Even though I don’t have a Mother now, I look back and remember the good times, and I think about all the Mothers I know. (My grandmother Etc.) 

I hope you love your Mother, and If you do that you tell her that. Please tell her you love her if you do. If you don’t ask your Mom to tell you about all she does for you, you will change your mind. And even if she doesn’t seem to love you, love her anyway… that is what love is.

Over the past month I have began to noticed how I view myself differently. 

Yesterday I told my sister that for once in my life I accept everything about myself. My flaws, my gifts, my quirks, and just plain ole me. Feeling good about myself makes me feel really good. I can laugh at myself, take advice, and be me more freely.

God is good. This trial is the best thing that couldn’t happened. I am less fearful, and I like myself! Thanks to the Lord I have made it through… It brings me to tears just thinking about all He has done for me these past six months. 

I just got back from a work trip I took Thursday-Saturday. We went to this place called Elijah’s Harbor in Tenn. There was a total of nine people that went. We got two bedrooms, a dining room and entry-way painted. We also got a good portion of landscaping done.

Elijah’s Harbor is a fancy bed & breakfast you might say. Additionally you can have all three meals served or you can make your own. Each meal is professionally made with no sparing. (Be prepared to be full) There is a mansion and individual houses. Animals, fishing, a pool, and much more. It is a beautiful place to visit! 

A Picture of the Mansion-

Ps. Great for Christian retreats!

His Promise

 

When I awoke this morning,

A question came to me:

“I wonder, oh, I wonder,

What this day will hold for me?”

 

As I pondered o’er the question,

“Are you afraid to face the day?”

Quickly came my Savior’s promise,

“I will guide you all the way.”

 

Tenderly he whispers to me,

“Trust me when in sinking sand,

Keep your face like flint toward heaven

I will always hold your hand.”

 

And again this promise grips me

Romans 8, verse 28

Stands as true as when first given;

It will work if we but wait.

 

“Written by:  Mildred Cleer   March 1947

(This special women was my Great Grandmother,

  I only new her when I was young, but I remember a

  Very dedicated woman.)-Vonda”

 

Ps. Vonda was my Mother

Stinky socks quickly go
Over and under the
Couch cushions
Kids jumping!
Sock falling

Gooey sticky
Little white stuff on a
Umbrella to keep it snug
Easy stuff to put on

Walk through a rainbow meadow with me
What do you see?
Yellow bright daisy’s, Red roses
Green green grass, Blue chicory
Blue cornflowers, and,
Pink forget me not’s,
Glittering in the bright warm sun
Waving back and forth in the wind